i'm leading a fucking life right now.
i'm tired, i wish to let go. i wish to run as far as i can.
i wish i could treat myself better.
how i wish, i could love myself more.

the way you cried, i'm guilty.
i'm soft-hearted. i agree to continue.
but i guess i'm wrong for the decision.
i wish i could have been more cruel. i could be more selfish.
to escape away, sours this friendship.
i couldnt bear dare.

how i wish the moment i open my eyes every morning,
the sky is so blue, yet is always that greyish. gloomy.
that i wish to just sleep deep down and never wake up.
i hate the present, i wish to be carefree. i wish for freedom.
i wish and i wish.

you cried, i pat you on ur back. i cried, just alone.
you cried, i hug you to give you warm. i cried, under my blanket.
you cried, i wipe away ur tears. i cried, tears rolls lky running tap.
you cried, i console you telling you is alright. i cried, mind went crazy.
you cried, i beside you. i cried, myself to sleep..

you enjoyed i suffered.
is not the way, yet couldnt do anything.
i just dun wish to hurt you, to let you suffer.
i suffered alone. just alone. me,alone. shinyi, alone.
i'm tired, yes i'm. i really do. can i get sick? how?

it needs two hands to clap. wad if theres only one hand?
i shouldnt have come to this world. i wish to disappear.
lky how droplet turns into gas. free and invisible. can i?
slit my wrists and feel the pain. stab right into the stomach seems better.
or maybe popping pills and get into deep sleep that never wakes up.
better?

i dun deserve to be love. i dun worth you.
i'm just useless and worthless. just leave me will you?
stopp dragging that brings pain more that stabbing myself.
i'm having mental problem soon become i have lost control.
i lose myself and couldnt defend myself. let the wild eat me up.
happy ending for everyone?

YES, i think so.