shiinn ish back tuh post againn;
dunno why ii post budd ii gort alot of thingg inside my hearrt
which ii dunno who ii cann share withh.)':
went tuhh shootin today;monthly shoot
budd was doing worst dhen ever;mindd was full of thinggs
tat ii couldnt take off.
tried my best budd ii shoot e worst result ii gortt.
wth ii am doinn?
when tuhh harmonica bandd.
took trainn with jas nn asked this questionn by jas
'hab ue really understand ue urself?'
yes, ii was sure of e ans.. clearly;
nno. ii dunn understandd myself so ddo anyone out there
nno one understandds mme;truely nno one at all.
e worst part of e day ish tat mme nn baby quarrel yet againn
nnort quarrel budd rather worst dhen tat.
we didnt quarrel;we tok iin a nice wayy.
e nicer we tok e worst outcome ii gort..
he toldd mme he ish tiredd;uponn lookin at mme gettin upset
everyday;everytime
bcos of this relationship of him & ii
after one year, we wentt throughh lots nn suffer lots
he finallyy said he ish tired. ish my fault
it really ishh;he doesnt habb a fault at all.
he habb done all he cann budd ii didnt.
e problem ish lackin of understandin;communication
we couldnt chat on anything; any topic.
nn ishh hurtin yet tiringg. ):
ii didnt spare a though for him;nort a all.
ii am a lousy gf;e worst iin this world ever
ii dun fittedd tuhh bbe loved by him.
yes, he ddo loves mme n ii ddo too
budd jus couldnt ddo anythin tat we reallyy ddo enjoyy.
chat anythingg tat we reallyy ddo enjoy.
why?why? anyone cann tell mme?
so ii told him. tuhh hab a break for some time
tuhh thinkk nn consider if this relationship could continue
or end?
monn; ishh e ans;result.
how? anyone cann tell mme;guild mme?
ii cry;tears jus cant stopp rollinn down.
ii evny others budd if ii realyy loved him.
shouldnt ii let him ggo instead of sufferin withh mme?
if ii loved him; shouldnt ii spare a thoughh for him?
if ii loved him; shouldnt ii give him his freedom backk?
if ii loved him; shouldnt ii wann him tuh find his happiness
rather dhen sadness nn tears withh mme?
shouldnt ii shouldnt ii?
wad should ii ddo.
it seems tat there ish nno way backk;
ish seems tat ish e endd of everythingg.

ii am useless! so useless. dunn suffer with mme.